Why I'm here ?

Sometime i feel confused, when i lost my motivation.
Why i here ? where my spirit gone ? I don't know about that anymore.
My family is the first reason I'm here, but for the fact i don't give anything.
I have my special person, but he can't be be my spirit. he don't have motif for his life too.
so, what i can do now ? God.. i already too far from you.. Can you take me nearer ? 
Please god, don't let me too far. 
I want to back to my good live, my spirit and motivation.
Why I'm here,